Happy Sunday, I hope that today is a beautiful day for you. I know that for many this is a rather trying time, a season of real challenges and hardship. A season that found you asking, Lord why me? I know I am asking this question right now because this is my second attempt to write this blog. I was almost done writing it when everything was totally lost. My first reaction was to just turn the computer off and not try again, but that would go against the very blog that I spent the last forty minutes typing, and because of that I will choose to learn the lesson in this unfortunate incident.
There is one man in the Bible that I greatly admire because he mirrors so perfectly the woman of God that I am. He reflects my calling, my struggles, and my purpose. I mirror his mistakes and shortcomings, but most importantly I like to believe I reflect his heart. When David was just a boy Jehovah made known to him His purpose for his life, David was destined to be King of Israel. However, after his anointing, David did not become King immediately. Instead, he found himself back in the wilderness tending sheep. I guess you could call him the little farm boy. I often wondered how some people must have looked down on David and laughed in their heart because His Dream was taking forever to come to pass. I bet some of his friends who weren’t even anointed by the prophet found themselves way ahead of him. Maybe they had their own camel and also owned their own house in Israel while David was still living at home with Jesse being a farm boy. I wonder to myself how David must have felt.
Did he wake up one morning and cry why me? Did he ever wonder if he will stand on the corridors of the promise for the rest of his life or if God would bring him into fulfillment? David was destined to be King and that we know but the question I found myself thinking about is this, was he also destined to be a shepherd boy? Were those wasted years or were they training for his ultimate calling?
I found myself in a lot of prayers lately, prayers that come from the depths of my stomach. I am not talking about the kind of prayers you pray at a prayer breakfast when a political official is in your midst. I am talking about belly hollering prayer that you hope will touch the heart of God, prayers that will cause Him to bring you into your highest heart’s desire and greatest dreams fulfilled right away. Those are the kind of prayers I have been praying as I cry out Lord why me?
Like David, I came to know my Purpose at a very tender age. I came to understand that my Purpose was in God and quite frankly ever since then His hands have always been on my life. I am really just a book with empty pages, but He is the one writing my story. And my prayer from childhood until now have always been, Lord give me a good story. The thing is this a good story in my head is when you have a perfect little family, opportunities are available, relationships go well and people succeed and fulfill their destiny with very little to no challenges at all. I guess you could say I have the microwave syndrome.
But truth be told, over the years I am slowly learning to let go of that, but God is still not done with me. Recently I have been wondering to myself why is it that everything in my life takes forever to happen. It’s like I have to struggle for everything. Why I’m I always at the edge of life wherein the only thing I can do is Trust God and his hands of salvation. Truth be told we can always trust but sometimes when we are in the fiery furnace, or the wilderness it hinders our ability to think straight. And with this I found myself wondering why is it that God showed me His grand purpose for my life yet my life is one of rejection and constant persecution. Why is it that some people who don’t have what is often referred to as a great call just seems to flow through life?
Well, a day can make a whole lot of difference and today was one such day for me. I was greatly encouraged, and I want to encourage you too. I pray that after today you will no longer cry why me? but instead you will say Thank God it’s me!!
David wasn’t wasting time when he was tending sheep, and neither are you. I was born to touch nations and make a difference in this world globally. I was born to create impact, and even though the world doesn't really know Ann-Marie Graham right now, I know I am not wasting time. To many I am but to God, I am in training, and that’s all that really matters. David being a shepherd and leading sheep was appropriate for the role he would take up later in life and lead the people of Israel.
David was a great king, quite frankly I think he was the greatest King that ever lived, but truth be told he didn’t become a great king after the crown was placed on his head. He became a great king before he even got the crown. When David was a king, he faced enormous challenges, but the method he used to overcome them was the same method he used as a shepherd. God allowed small obstacles to test David as a shepherd and we saw where he exercised his faith twice as a boy when he fought the lion and the bear to protect his flock. Later on, we saw where he used the same principle to kill Goliath and protect God’s Flock Israel.
God could have prevented the lion and the bear from coming close to David’s flock in the first place. But if God had done that David probably wouldn’t have enough faith to go and fight against a vast giant called Goliath. David could have complained and cried, Lord why me? Why allow this lion to come near my flock? But he didn’t do that, he stood firm and overcame.
Even in my own life right now I am facing giants, but the truth is, I determine if I am going to allow these giants to be stumbling blocks or stepping stones. Now if I trust God, my challenges will become stepping stones, but if I trust my own flesh and my own wisdom and do what I want to do then these giants will become stumbling blocks.
After David killed Goliath, he was promoted from serving as a shepherd boy to serving King Saul. By David being in the palace he could learn firsthand how to be a king and most importantly he could learn not to follow in Saul’s evil footstep. He learnt about the dangers of power when one isn’t fully submitted to God. No Harvard or Yale University could teach David as much as he learned seeing Saul in action. Many times Saul tried to kill David, but David learned how to trust in God’s protection. In the end, all things worked out in David’s favor because he genuinely love and believed in God.
David didn’t deserve Saul’s unkind treatment because of a fact he served Saul so faithfully. On two different occasions, David had the perfect opportunity to take revenge on Saul but he spared his life. This was a great test of David’s Integrity. As leaders, we are supposed to be kind to the unkind, and that’s just what David did. Now David was a human being just like you and me, and at one point in his life he grew weary. it got to the point where he even said in 1 Sam 27:1 “Now I will perish one day at the hands of Saul” Now that certainly isn’t faith, sounds to me like he doubted if he will ever become king. Sometimes situation in life makes us feel that way. I spent one month doubting if I will ever touch nations and fulfill my destiny so I understand where David was coming from and I understand where you are coming from. But Thank God for Grace.
I could pretend and say I have it all together but I am being transparent, that’s how I felt this past month when I cried out to God and ask, why me? Some days we will feel as though we have made a mess of things and ruined God’s Purpose for our life. But be encouraged beloved, God made provision for your purpose to be fulfilled before the foundations of the world. Trust God, have faith in him, and He will bring His good plans to pass in your life.
David passed the test and wore his crown and so will you.
I still trust that God will GIVE ME A GOOD STORY.
And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 1 Peter 5:10 (ESV)
Written by Prophetess Ann-Marie Graham
Founder of (Up from the dust to a life of Purpose) and (A New You coaching.)